hello

So things have been ok today, well in a sence that i've been off ill today, don't know what the hell i have but my temp has been up then down. sweaty, dizzy(and i know thats nothing new) its not been fun and all i really wanna do is sleep. I don't think work will be too happy with me but who gives a flying fuck lol not me.

ooooh one of my friends had a lil baby boy..Ethan. just can't wait to go see him lol she emailed me saying that she loves every bit of him even at 3am lol bless, well just need to get this ass of mine well and go round to Lauras to see him. Only one thing about going to see baby's, they make me broodie which isn't a good thing, The amount of times the ex and myself tried with no lucky, hmm was that him or me or was it more of a case that with everything going on deep down i didn't want one with him? who knows but in a way i wish i did have a cute lil kid with him, even if we did split in the end, it would mean i have something of him with me now.

Oh well maybe one day soon i might have a cute lil suzie, just gotta find that donor lol i'm kidding..just gotta find the right guy, someone who will love me, care for me , look after me and not fuck about on me lol.

But that dream might never come true lol might never have a person tell me "i bet you look cute even as a drown r.a.t" lol sorry thats just something a guy once wrote to me in a email :( lol

anyway i think thats it for now...having fun playing crib on yahoo lol played for 2 hours last night with Ian lol damn he is good, that brat never told me he was a pro at crib. Ah well told him that next time i'll bring the board and he better have the coffee on lol might just make that trip over and whip his ass at crip. But then again as always i might not lol

hugssssssssss and talk later


Suzie